2010 is here!!!!

Bring on 2010!! I'm so excited to be where I am right now. I have lost 55 lbs. this year...since June 20th and I'm very proud of myself and happy that I have something to show for my efforts. I have alot of work to do still and Christmas was definitely a detour to that. That's when indulgences are worth it...holidays, specifically thanksgiving and xmas...and possibly vacation...the rest of the year is when I want to really focus on my nutirtion and overall health.

I will be making some changes this year to my plan. I want to focus more on the clean eating aspect of my plan and clean it up even more. I'd also like to start weight training. I have been weight training but not with any specific goals in mind or structure to my workouts. I'd like to change that this year. I will still be on Weight Watchers, to track my weight, but I'm going to focus more on clean foods in proper portions without tracking points....see how I do and then re-evaluate in the next few weeks.

I'm excited to get started...actually I already started this week...and I'm looking forward to seeing the results!

Happy New Year!! :)

ugh...

lol...I want chocolate in the worst way...actually I KNOW we are having chocolate no bake cookies on Christmas and I am just drooling for them...I gotta try extra hard to have MONUMENTAL control when eating those cookies. If they were sitting in front of me right now I'd eat at least 10 without taking a breath I'm sure. They are those magical kind of melt in your mouth, the perfect texture and flavor and give you that "O M G" feeling as soon as you swallow the first bite. LOL Man....I gotta get a grip! ;)

I am feeling so much better and on top of my game again!! WOOOOO HOOOOO!!! It feels good to KNOW that you can have a scary slip and find your way back in what I consider record time. I'm so happy that I didn't give in to my old ways.

I've been thinking about how much weight I want to lose and how much I'm willing to put into maintaining etc. I want to really see what I'm made of. This is it, it's now or never, so why not?!? I want to take my physique to the highest level I can and get lean and toned and as fit as possible. Just to know that I can do it and also to see how much I would like it. I am always in awe of people like Tosca Reno, Mia Finnegan and other fitness models...but especially Tosca.

Tosca was overweight in her early 40's and that's when she took up bodybuilding...she hasn't been doing it since she was a tiny 20-something...she carved that beautiful body from where I am right now. It gives me a bit of hope that I might be able to get my figure back and least somewhat. I am hopeful. I want to be healthy first, but now that I'm getting that part accomplished...I'm starting to want "the look". lol

I'm so excited for this next year...I'm going to see myself unveil before my own eyes!! I have several things to look forward to experiencing in my new body and I'm looking forward all of it. I also want to explore more in the organic whole foods venue...trying new foods, new recipes and expanding my current menu.

I'ts almost here...the new year!! I can't wait!!! :)

So, I'm sitting here freaking out about how much I messed up last week (the first real mess up that resulted in my first gain since I started losing weight!) and as I'm beating myself up thinking about how weak I must be...and here we go again, I better get back control before it gets out of hand...cuz it ALWAYS gets out of hand and why is that anyway...and on and on, one freak out after the next...when I flip the magazine I'm desperately reading, trying to find a huge dose of motivation and my eyes fixate on the word "sugar" and of course I'm going to read it next!

I'm sure it would be a copyright infringement to rewrite it in it's entirety here, so I will just tell you that it's a MUST read and you can find the article in the January issue of Oxygen Magazine. The article is titled "Of Grit and Grain" on page 56. EVERYTHING she says in this article is exactly what I have come to realize through trial and tribulation in my own journey thus far. It was so enlightening to hear someone else state my findings as their own truth, and the truth of thousands of other women who have come to realize the same things. She talks about the Food Industry, which many of you know, I have HUGE issues with, and the information in the article truly made me even more resolved that sugar is in fact detrimental to my health and I need to work on getting rid of as much of it as possible. Currently I have organic brown sugar in my coffee in the mornings...I use to drink one cup a day. I've noticed that since eating clean my coffee consumption has gone to 4 or 5 cups a day (and night - decaf) and I suspect now that it's due to my body craving the sugar...I seem to always want a cup of coffee. I LOVE coffee and don't want to give it up but I dunno, it might have to come to that. I'm not willing to sabotage my efforts, my health, my life for a cup of coffee. I know I can drink it black, but that's not nearly as appealing, obviously. For a sugar addict, loading it with cream and sugar is like drinking a slice of cake! lol

Anyway, I seriously encourage you to check out the article. The whole magazine is a great read!

Pork Roast Stir Fry

Jogging/Running

I've never been a runner. Even when I was a competitive skater, I didn't run. I have never run. In high school I walked the required lap around the field and took C's in P.E. because I refused to run. I would always get a nasty stitch in my side and my girls would bounce so much I thought one of them was going to launch off at any moment and hit some unsuspecting pupil running next to me. *shakes head* I have just never found even the smallest bit of enjoyment out of it.

However....

Lately my walks have turned into speed walks and I find myself wanting to take flight mid walk. I have actually wanted to run....well, maybe a light jog would be more accurate. I've never felt this urge before. But, I find my mind has been trying to force my body to stay at a quick walk...my legs clearly ready to launch into the jog...my heart and lungs saying "pfft! that all you got?"....and it seems the only thing stopping me is fear.

So....the next gym workout is going to be on the treadmill....and when I get to that moment when my legs want to launch into a jog...I'm actually going to let them! lol...


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