Saturday, February 27, 2010
NEW TRAINING SCHEDULE
MONDAY - FRIDAY
Before work: Ride or walk to work OR do 30 min cardio DVD or step
AM Break: Climb stairs 3 times & coffee
LUNCH: 30 minute walk (outside or 3rd floor if raining)
PM Break: Walk outside (if raining stretch & coffee in lounge)
After work: Ride or walk home (if raining take bus and do 20 min step)
MONDAY - WEDNESDAY - FRIDAY
GYM WORKOUTS
MONDAY: Cardio / Back & Biceps (stretch at home)
WEDNESDAY: Cardio / Legs & Triceps (stretch at home)
FRIDAY: Cardio / Chest & Shoulders (stretch at home)
TUESDAY - THURSDAY - SATURDAY
HOME WORKOUTS
TUESDAY: DVD or Step & Abs, stretch
THURSDAY: DVD or Step & Abs, stretch
SATURDAY: DVD or Step & Abs, stretch
SUNDAY - DAY OFF (rest!)
Friday, February 26, 2010
If only...
I do weekly vlogs on a YouTube channel called The Weight Loss Diaires, every Saturday. This week's topic is interesting....it's about those things we tend to say to ourselves that create obstacles cleverly disguised as valid excuses, or so we think. How many times have you told yourself "If only I had money, I could join a gym and exercise." or "If only there was more time in my day, I'd be able to cook healthy food."
Everything could be completely set up perfectly and you might still find an excuse somewhere...we have to look for the opportunities not the obstacles.
"Because I have air in my lungs & a body that can move, I can change my world."
"Because I have strength & determination I can overcome anything."
"Because there are 24 hours in every single day I have plenty of time to exercise."
"Because I shop creatively I can feed my body healthy nutritious foods."
"Because I can reshape my body & mind through nutrition and exercise, I can pursue a new career in health & fitness."
"Because I take care of myself I can give more to my family."
"Because I love who I am and feel good about my life and my decisions I am no longer inclined to let other's opinions decide my fate."
"Because I believe in myself, I can achieve any dream!"
Everything could be completely set up perfectly and you might still find an excuse somewhere...we have to look for the opportunities not the obstacles.
"Because I have air in my lungs & a body that can move, I can change my world."
"Because I have strength & determination I can overcome anything."
"Because there are 24 hours in every single day I have plenty of time to exercise."
"Because I shop creatively I can feed my body healthy nutritious foods."
"Because I can reshape my body & mind through nutrition and exercise, I can pursue a new career in health & fitness."
"Because I take care of myself I can give more to my family."
"Because I love who I am and feel good about my life and my decisions I am no longer inclined to let other's opinions decide my fate."
"Because I believe in myself, I can achieve any dream!"
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Today was a struggle...
Today was a tough day...I didn't "do all I could" today to have a good weight loss day. I did walk at lunch but I could tell it was more of a leisure stroll than a good brisk walk. I didn't go to the gym and I was suppose to go roller skating with my sister and it got cancelled...so I should have either gone to the gym or worked out at home and I took a nap instead. Maybe my body needed the rest, I dunno, but I am still tired so I'm heading to bed tonight earlier than usual.
Tomorrow I am hoping to feel more refreshed and ready to kick it up a notch! No gym scheduled for tomorrow but I might go anyway after work. If not I will definitely work out at home. I need to hit the weights more consistently...been focusing on cardio and I see better results if I make sure I combine cardio AND weights.
Tomorrow I am hoping to feel more refreshed and ready to kick it up a notch! No gym scheduled for tomorrow but I might go anyway after work. If not I will definitely work out at home. I need to hit the weights more consistently...been focusing on cardio and I see better results if I make sure I combine cardio AND weights.
In the zone...
I'm doing well this week so far. Just very focused and working hard at staying on track and getting into a zone. I do much better when I'm in a zone and focused hardcore on getting something accomplished. I feel like I've gotten my groove back big time. Finally. I want things and I'm not going to stop until I get them. For the first time in my life I'm going to get what I want. I'm going to make it happen because I am PERFECTLY CAPABLE of that and more! This is my year, my time, my moment. I'm done being afraid and I'm not going to let something as insignificant as bad food bring me down.
Bring it on....!
Bring it on....!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
How my week went...
I lost 4.4 lbs. this week!! I'm so glad the work pays off...it just confirms that if you truly do the work, it will show. I've been yo-yoing for 2 1/2 months because I keep interrupting my progress with overeating or binges here or there. This week I didn't allow that to happen and it's even more important to continue that next week because this is what I do...I gain, get mad, lose...relax a bit...gain again...and so on. And, it might even be considered "maintainence worthy" but I'm not in maintenance...I'm still in weight loss. I still have 43.4 lbs. to lose to make my Dec. 31, 2010 goal. I currently still weigh 204.2 lbs. I am no where near maintainence.
Losing 4.4 lbs. that you've already lost once before is not as sweet of a victory....
I am trying to figure out why I keep straying...what is making me overeat and I think generally it's boredom with my food and being hungry. I workout with weights so my appetite is higher than it use to be...I feel lethargic at times when I don't eat enough and if I get too hungry I'll overeat at my next meal. In particular the afternoon times. I need to make sure I eat a bigger meal at my mid afternoon times (2:30 and 5:30). I'll work on that this week.
And, I want to try some new recipes...incorporate more "fun" foods, still clean, still wholesome but a healthy treat here and there and not the same old same old. I'm going to try TrulyJess' 1 pt chocolate chip cookies. I normally can't have baked items in my house but I want to try this out as I think it could help me stay on plan better. We'll see...it's moving a bit out of my comfort level but I gotta shake things up a bit. I also want to do some new things with chicken and turkey. I have some ideas for some wraps this week and I'm going to try some new spices as well.
I'm very pleased with my loss this week, but feeling apprehensive nonetheless. In really trying to figure out what the main problem is (I mean besides stress and money issues which I mentioned earlier...) I think having more "fun" in my diet and less boredom will really help. The potential to lose well should be the same as the ingredients are the same...it's how I put it all together that will be different this next week. My only concern is containing my 1 pt. cookie consumption to 2-3 cookies at a time. I think it only bakes 12 anyway...so worse case scenario is I eat 12 pts. at one time...not the worst thing that could happen. I feel pretty good about trying this.
this is tough stuff. Losing weight, creating new ways to cope with stress, keeping up with workouts, trying new recipes...it's hard to live a lifestyle full of so much attention and focus on taking care of yourself. It's easier to sit around and let the laundry build up and let the dishes pile up...skip a shower, skip a workout...eat whatever takes the least effort. That's all so much easier when you're heavy and tired and sluggish and just want to sleep all the time.
But, the interesting thing is that doing all of those good for you things breeds pride and a better understanding of yourself. Helps lift your mood and feel accomplished, one task at a time. I don't exhaust myself anymore with doing the laundry and dishes....those have finally become the last thing on my list...now I just need to let go of the stress I feel in not doing them all the time and things will go alot smoother. It doesn't matter how many different ways I look at it....the dishes and the laundry are NOT more important than my nutrition and exercise. NOT more important than taking care of me. PERIOD. Not anymore....never again will be. And, thankfully I have a hubby who does his own laundry and doesn't mind washing a dirty dish when he needs one. He ROCKS in my book....and he's lost 17 pounds himself....and is gaining some impressive muscle to boot!
Losing 4.4 lbs. that you've already lost once before is not as sweet of a victory....
I am trying to figure out why I keep straying...what is making me overeat and I think generally it's boredom with my food and being hungry. I workout with weights so my appetite is higher than it use to be...I feel lethargic at times when I don't eat enough and if I get too hungry I'll overeat at my next meal. In particular the afternoon times. I need to make sure I eat a bigger meal at my mid afternoon times (2:30 and 5:30). I'll work on that this week.
And, I want to try some new recipes...incorporate more "fun" foods, still clean, still wholesome but a healthy treat here and there and not the same old same old. I'm going to try TrulyJess' 1 pt chocolate chip cookies. I normally can't have baked items in my house but I want to try this out as I think it could help me stay on plan better. We'll see...it's moving a bit out of my comfort level but I gotta shake things up a bit. I also want to do some new things with chicken and turkey. I have some ideas for some wraps this week and I'm going to try some new spices as well.
I'm very pleased with my loss this week, but feeling apprehensive nonetheless. In really trying to figure out what the main problem is (I mean besides stress and money issues which I mentioned earlier...) I think having more "fun" in my diet and less boredom will really help. The potential to lose well should be the same as the ingredients are the same...it's how I put it all together that will be different this next week. My only concern is containing my 1 pt. cookie consumption to 2-3 cookies at a time. I think it only bakes 12 anyway...so worse case scenario is I eat 12 pts. at one time...not the worst thing that could happen. I feel pretty good about trying this.
this is tough stuff. Losing weight, creating new ways to cope with stress, keeping up with workouts, trying new recipes...it's hard to live a lifestyle full of so much attention and focus on taking care of yourself. It's easier to sit around and let the laundry build up and let the dishes pile up...skip a shower, skip a workout...eat whatever takes the least effort. That's all so much easier when you're heavy and tired and sluggish and just want to sleep all the time.
But, the interesting thing is that doing all of those good for you things breeds pride and a better understanding of yourself. Helps lift your mood and feel accomplished, one task at a time. I don't exhaust myself anymore with doing the laundry and dishes....those have finally become the last thing on my list...now I just need to let go of the stress I feel in not doing them all the time and things will go alot smoother. It doesn't matter how many different ways I look at it....the dishes and the laundry are NOT more important than my nutrition and exercise. NOT more important than taking care of me. PERIOD. Not anymore....never again will be. And, thankfully I have a hubby who does his own laundry and doesn't mind washing a dirty dish when he needs one. He ROCKS in my book....and he's lost 17 pounds himself....and is gaining some impressive muscle to boot!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Well, my last post was dismal...the past two days have been better. I'm on track, so far, and while I'm not convinced it will be a great weight loss week yet, I am pretty sure that I'm at least pointing in the right direction. I have an amazing husband who truly supports my efforts and really goes the extra mile to help support me in times like these. I've made great nutritional choices the past two days...and tonight we decided to go to the gym. We normally don't go on Sundays but I want to take it up a notch and try to burn off some of my gain. I did a 20 minute intense cardio session (I also went roller skating earlier in the day) and worked legs. I'm going to stretch here in a minute, then shower and settle in for the night. This feels good. This serious sense of accomplishment feels very very good. When nothing else seems in my control it's nice to feel something that I can control and feel prideful of.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Disappointed
I am highly disappointed in myself this week. I knew I was going to struggle to even break even at weigh in but I actually gained 5.8 lbs. I've been on this journey since June 20, 2009. I had only gained twice from then until now and they were no where near this much. I am so disappointed in my choices and lack of control this week. I had at least 3 major challenges and rather than look for the opportunity to stay on track I took the low road and gave in to temptations and overindulgence.
I am trying to analyze why....they could be characterized as "binges"...I am fighting that old behavior, when it's been months since I've used this familiar coping mechanism. If I take a good long look at my week, my last few weeks really, I see that there are two major things that are happening, both of them creating a fair amount of stress on me. First, we are very very broke. I am filing bankruptcy because my income level had dropped $40k per year when I moved home to help take care of my mom, who has kidney failure. So, there are no credit cards, nothing left over to save...we live paycheck to paycheck. Normally we do okay. This year it seems there is way more to pay for than we have money for, even if we squished every cent we could out.
My husband needs dental work...and when I say "need" I mean need! He's neglected it for so long he has major infections going on. All of his teeth (what's left of them) need to be pulled and dentures made. We are told this will cost $8,800. My insurance will cover only $1500. We only have $7,200 in extra spending money per year if we pinch every single penny and nothing comes up that the kids need or that we need. In addition to this I need $2800 to pay the attorney for my bankruptcy. I owe the IRS $1400 for an error in my 2007 taxes. We haven't done our taxes this year but I suspect we'll owe, based on the changes we experienced this year. We don't have a car...my brother-in-law offered his broke down Audi to us but it needs work and doesn't run at the moment. We are guestimating that the cost to fix it is between $500 and $800. We sleep on an airbed and as a result my back has been getting worse...getting out of bed in the morning is sometimes excruciating...we need a real bed. Last year we didn't do Christmas, but this year we were hoping to. We have 5 kids.
So, all of this wouldn't be so bad, but you top it off with a job that you hate, in a small town where good jobs are impossible to find and therefore you feel trapped and it makes for a very depressing situation. If I didn't love my husband so much and was committed to my family as I am, I wouldn't live in this town...it's crippling in terms of career opportunities.
I think I'm stressed out about money and work. And, when I get stressed out I eat. Period. My gain is a direct result of my coping with this stress in my most famous and familiar way. Bingeing.
There is only one thing that I feel like I have any amount of control over and that's my health. So,when that starts to slip it makes me feel almost panicked. I am very discouraged by the gain...I feel very defeated and I feel like I have a huge stack of bricks on my shoulders. I'm just so tired of it all....
I guess if I were to step outside the box and look at the situation, trying not to feel the emotion of it, I would say to myself...here's what you do: 1) You decide what is realistic and you deal with only that, the rest will have to wait. Make a plan for your finances and work it. 3) Use your new health plan and exercise to deal with your stress. Work it out in the gym instead of reaching for comfort foods. Sounds simple but you know it's gonna be hard...but the more you conquer it the more you're going to feel in control and on top of at least one thing that's important to you. Baby step the rest of it.
My mom has a saying that gets her through the tough times and I think it's wise to remember that.... "This too shall pass..."
I am trying to analyze why....they could be characterized as "binges"...I am fighting that old behavior, when it's been months since I've used this familiar coping mechanism. If I take a good long look at my week, my last few weeks really, I see that there are two major things that are happening, both of them creating a fair amount of stress on me. First, we are very very broke. I am filing bankruptcy because my income level had dropped $40k per year when I moved home to help take care of my mom, who has kidney failure. So, there are no credit cards, nothing left over to save...we live paycheck to paycheck. Normally we do okay. This year it seems there is way more to pay for than we have money for, even if we squished every cent we could out.
My husband needs dental work...and when I say "need" I mean need! He's neglected it for so long he has major infections going on. All of his teeth (what's left of them) need to be pulled and dentures made. We are told this will cost $8,800. My insurance will cover only $1500. We only have $7,200 in extra spending money per year if we pinch every single penny and nothing comes up that the kids need or that we need. In addition to this I need $2800 to pay the attorney for my bankruptcy. I owe the IRS $1400 for an error in my 2007 taxes. We haven't done our taxes this year but I suspect we'll owe, based on the changes we experienced this year. We don't have a car...my brother-in-law offered his broke down Audi to us but it needs work and doesn't run at the moment. We are guestimating that the cost to fix it is between $500 and $800. We sleep on an airbed and as a result my back has been getting worse...getting out of bed in the morning is sometimes excruciating...we need a real bed. Last year we didn't do Christmas, but this year we were hoping to. We have 5 kids.
So, all of this wouldn't be so bad, but you top it off with a job that you hate, in a small town where good jobs are impossible to find and therefore you feel trapped and it makes for a very depressing situation. If I didn't love my husband so much and was committed to my family as I am, I wouldn't live in this town...it's crippling in terms of career opportunities.
I think I'm stressed out about money and work. And, when I get stressed out I eat. Period. My gain is a direct result of my coping with this stress in my most famous and familiar way. Bingeing.
There is only one thing that I feel like I have any amount of control over and that's my health. So,when that starts to slip it makes me feel almost panicked. I am very discouraged by the gain...I feel very defeated and I feel like I have a huge stack of bricks on my shoulders. I'm just so tired of it all....
I guess if I were to step outside the box and look at the situation, trying not to feel the emotion of it, I would say to myself...here's what you do: 1) You decide what is realistic and you deal with only that, the rest will have to wait. Make a plan for your finances and work it. 3) Use your new health plan and exercise to deal with your stress. Work it out in the gym instead of reaching for comfort foods. Sounds simple but you know it's gonna be hard...but the more you conquer it the more you're going to feel in control and on top of at least one thing that's important to you. Baby step the rest of it.
My mom has a saying that gets her through the tough times and I think it's wise to remember that.... "This too shall pass..."
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Two Days and One Night
It's two days and one night until my next weigh-in and I haven't done as well this week as I would have liked. Did I mention the BBQ on Sunday?? Well, now we are going out to dinner on Sunday night for Valentine's Day and then down to the City on Monday all day. So, I need a plan of action...my goal is to lose 5.5 lbs. this month. At this point I think I will be breaking even at weigh in, if I'm lucky...so it's important to not let this Sunday and Monday be an excuse to ruin my week.
I want to enjoy Valentine's meal but that doesn't mean I have to overindulge. Normal portions are on the menu for that meal. Then, Monday my intention is to pack my cooler and take my meals on the road with me. I'll eat my usual 5-6 small meals throughout the day. If my family decides to eat out I'll have to put in my request to go somewhere with healthy meal options. I think that's a decent compromise. This is an opportunity to find creative ways to have a day out and a Valentine's dinner out and still be on track!
I'm about to go pick my husband up from work and then I'm going to get my workout on! Two days and one night!!! Bring em on!! ;P
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Weigh-in and more!
Oops, I kinda forgot about blogging until today. ><>
It's been a challenging week though. I have been fighting old demons...literally fighting them. There has been a battle going on inside my head the past 3 days, probably why I lost focus and didn't blog...I wasn't in my usual frame of mind. I am happy to say however, that I won the fight this time!!! I got MAD and kicked my own ass tonight at the gym and finally pushed my cravings to the side and my bad attitude. NOTHING is going to stop me from reaching my goal and beyond. I am not ever going to go back to living the way I use to...I'd rather die to be honest.
And, on that note, my ACE Personal Training Manual arrived!!! I'm officially studying for my Personal Training Exam (hoping to take it in Dececember). I also hope to learn alot from this manual for my own journey. I live in a small town and the market here for personal trainers doesn't appear to be abundant. But, just as I did with this path I'm on now...I'll just have to forge a new one, won't I?! :)
I noticed something that really helped me take back control tonight. I did a few key things and I want to share them with you.
The first thing I did was pick out some "kick ass" music. Something with a message of strength and a sprinkling of anger. It suited my mood and need.
Then I focused. I mean REALLY focused. Every rep, every breath, every single movement was deliberate and concentrated...backed by my anger at how I have lived my life before and how it was trying to creep back in. My lazy, unfocused, wanting to fall back into old patterns, carb craving, pissy, whiney, half glass empty, crappy attitude was pissing me off!!! So, I used that anger to fuel my focus...and then...
...I became a peacock. I mean full on feathers and all! I started walking around confidently and securely. Not pompous...I hate pompous, but rather had a stride that was full of genuine pride and accomplishment. Happy accomplishment. I am proud of how far I've come and most of the time I walk around trying not to be noticed. Tonight, I walked like a peacock...and people noticed. I smiled when they looked my way and they smiled back...it was nice and it made me feel.............proud. Proud of how far I've come. And, I should walk tall and proud...besides it really makes you look thinner! ;)
It's been a challenging week though. I have been fighting old demons...literally fighting them. There has been a battle going on inside my head the past 3 days, probably why I lost focus and didn't blog...I wasn't in my usual frame of mind. I am happy to say however, that I won the fight this time!!! I got MAD and kicked my own ass tonight at the gym and finally pushed my cravings to the side and my bad attitude. NOTHING is going to stop me from reaching my goal and beyond. I am not ever going to go back to living the way I use to...I'd rather die to be honest.
And, on that note, my ACE Personal Training Manual arrived!!! I'm officially studying for my Personal Training Exam (hoping to take it in Dececember). I also hope to learn alot from this manual for my own journey. I live in a small town and the market here for personal trainers doesn't appear to be abundant. But, just as I did with this path I'm on now...I'll just have to forge a new one, won't I?! :)
I noticed something that really helped me take back control tonight. I did a few key things and I want to share them with you.
The first thing I did was pick out some "kick ass" music. Something with a message of strength and a sprinkling of anger. It suited my mood and need.
Then I focused. I mean REALLY focused. Every rep, every breath, every single movement was deliberate and concentrated...backed by my anger at how I have lived my life before and how it was trying to creep back in. My lazy, unfocused, wanting to fall back into old patterns, carb craving, pissy, whiney, half glass empty, crappy attitude was pissing me off!!! So, I used that anger to fuel my focus...and then...
...I became a peacock. I mean full on feathers and all! I started walking around confidently and securely. Not pompous...I hate pompous, but rather had a stride that was full of genuine pride and accomplishment. Happy accomplishment. I am proud of how far I've come and most of the time I walk around trying not to be noticed. Tonight, I walked like a peacock...and people noticed. I smiled when they looked my way and they smiled back...it was nice and it made me feel.............proud. Proud of how far I've come. And, I should walk tall and proud...besides it really makes you look thinner! ;)
Friday, February 5, 2010
Feb. 5, 2010 Weigh-in is tomorrow!!
I feel very accomplished and disciplined at the end of this week. Tomorrow morning is my weigh-in and I'm looking forward to seeing the results of my hard work this week. I hope I will have something on the scale to celebrate, but even if I don't, I can feel the difference this week and know I'm doing all that is good for my body and soul. Just got back from the gym...it's interesting how my mind thinks of myself as a fit, trim sporty kinda gal now...I mean, why wouldn't I....I eat, breath and sleep health and fitness these days. But, while doing my ab workout on the physio ball in front of the wall of mirrors at the gym, I noticed how I don't look like I feel. I still see a 200+ lb. girl in the mirror...I still have weight in my waist, legs, butt, thigh and neck...my arms are probably the trimmest part of me right now. And, much to my dismay my boobs seem to have lost more weight than anywhere else on my body. I feel like a machine...but I still have a long way to go to look like one. It's okay though...I'm up for the challenge and looking forward to whittling away the excess pounds and discovering what's underneath! I wanted Chinese food today in the worst way. I decided I'll have Chinese food in March. I think maybe for my 1 year wedding anniversary, we can take a drive up to this great little Chinese Food place I love and celebrate our anniversary ~ this doesn't mean it's a license to overeat. I simply means chinese food is one of my meals that day...small portions and LOTS of water! lol....
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Thursday, Feb. 4, 2010 Exciting News!
So! Today was an amazing day....work sucked less than normal, which was a nice break from the usual suckiness. I felt like I was able to participate in a brainstorming session that ended up having a very positive outcome. Anyway, that's not the exciting news!
I just, moments ago, hit the "purchase" button for my ACE Personal Training Certification Manual!! I am hoping to take the exam in December of this year and I want to get started on my studies! I also need to get CPR and AED certified. I will be a busy girl the rest of this year. :) This is the very first step to making health & fitness my new career and a permanent part of my life.
If there's one thing I'm passionate about it's sharing good information! I think we are so completely duped by the food industry. We think we are consuming healthy foods when we aren't. We think we are following the best health tips but really they are there to guide us exactly where the advertisers wants us. It's time for us to take a stand and demand truth and awareness. Demand whole healthy richly nutritious fresh foods. The other day a woman said to me....I only drink teas and juices, I stay away from all sodas...and I was looking at a "Green Tea" in her hands. I asked her if I could read the ingredients on the tea bottle. The first ingredient was water, the second was high fructose corn syrup, followed by a multitude of preservatives and additives...then finally, green tea. That's not any better than soda. It's pure sugar water with a hint of green tea. The bottle is very deceiving...it would be easy to assume it was healthy...it was green tea afterall...what could be healthier, right?
Do you think this is okay? One of my favorite quotes is "Be the change you want to see in the world." Ghandi. I want more out of my life...I want truth and I want what's right. When I go to a grocery store I want to know the food is as it appears to be and nothing more, nothing less. I want people to be empowered with their knowledge of nutrition instead of left wondering why they keep gaining weight and can't seem to stay on plan. WE have to take care of ourselves and not rely on an industry that cares way more about the mightly buck than they ever have or ever will about us...the consumer. I want to be the change I want to see in the world. I want to be the example of what is possible. I want to be a beacon of hope to people like me, who have struggled their whole lives with their weight and health. This is my first step...certification. From there the sky is the limit.
Stay strong...and remember, no more excuses! :)
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Wednesday, Feb. 3, 2010
Just got back from the gym...I did the eliptical for 20 minutes and the stationary bike for about 15 minutes. I was suppose to do a leg workout but the gym was packed....I really hate the gym. I hate waiting for people and being watched while they wait for me. It makes it that much harder to get into a good zone and really push myself. So, I opted to work out my legs at home tonight, which I will do as soon as I write this post. I know it's gonna wipe me out and I have to shower after that so I better get this up.
It was a good, productive, weight loss day. I am feeling pretty good about my progress so far this week...and I am hopeful the scale will show good things. I am trying to get into Onederland (below 200 lbs.) and my last weigh in was 204.6. I won't see that happen this week, but maybe next week? I hope I'm close to saying goodbye to the 200's forever. Wow.......what a concept there. I've known this whole journey that this time was different....but....
....it just hit me that this will, in fact, be the last time I ever see 200 on the scale. I never intend to be back in this weight range ever again...and while I know LOTS and LOTS of people, myself included, that have said the exact same thing and still gained all their weight back...I dunno, I can't explain it. I just know that my life is changing. That I am changing. And, I truly believe myself when I say I will never see it again. I think this is a monumental thing....something to be taken very seriously. I think I might have to have a farewell party. Yes...yes I will. I am going to have a Farewell to 200's party! It should be both celebrated and reflected upon. The party goers will be just me and my husband but it will still be celebrated. And, while I am celebrating my final farewell to the 200's I will be sure to also celebrate the man who has never pressured me to lose weight and has always made me feel like a beautiful Princess...even at 260 lbs, my incredible husband, David.
Wow, I'm saying good bye to a very old familiar, highly annoying, friend for the very last time. I will never see this friend again...not all friends are suppose to stay with you for your whole life. What is that saying...something about how people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. The reason I stayed in the 200's is no longer inside me. There was a time when I needed the comfort of it, but now my life has changed, I have changed...it's time to let this friend go.... :)
It was a good, productive, weight loss day. I am feeling pretty good about my progress so far this week...and I am hopeful the scale will show good things. I am trying to get into Onederland (below 200 lbs.) and my last weigh in was 204.6. I won't see that happen this week, but maybe next week? I hope I'm close to saying goodbye to the 200's forever. Wow.......what a concept there. I've known this whole journey that this time was different....but....
....it just hit me that this will, in fact, be the last time I ever see 200 on the scale. I never intend to be back in this weight range ever again...and while I know LOTS and LOTS of people, myself included, that have said the exact same thing and still gained all their weight back...I dunno, I can't explain it. I just know that my life is changing. That I am changing. And, I truly believe myself when I say I will never see it again. I think this is a monumental thing....something to be taken very seriously. I think I might have to have a farewell party. Yes...yes I will. I am going to have a Farewell to 200's party! It should be both celebrated and reflected upon. The party goers will be just me and my husband but it will still be celebrated. And, while I am celebrating my final farewell to the 200's I will be sure to also celebrate the man who has never pressured me to lose weight and has always made me feel like a beautiful Princess...even at 260 lbs, my incredible husband, David.
Wow, I'm saying good bye to a very old familiar, highly annoying, friend for the very last time. I will never see this friend again...not all friends are suppose to stay with you for your whole life. What is that saying...something about how people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. The reason I stayed in the 200's is no longer inside me. There was a time when I needed the comfort of it, but now my life has changed, I have changed...it's time to let this friend go.... :)
Tuesday, Feb. 2, 2010
I can tell I'm losing this week. I can feel it. Well, that and also my wedding ring just fell right off my finger while I was talking with my hands. Well, that and I all of a sudden noticed how loose my pants are. Well....that and I put my hands on my hips during my step aerobic workout and felt a waist...talk about surreal! Yeah....I can feel it. It feels really good. :)
My challenge today was rice pudding....not just any rice pudding. I'm talking old Spanish recipe from my great grandmother Jualita type of rice pudding. It's made with a ton of butter, cream and sugar. My mom made some and invited me over. I don't remember ever eating this decadent desert during my childhood so I wasn't expecting much. I pretty much thought it was because it must be horrible and I will remember that as soon as I take a small taste of it. O M G....it was beyond yummy...I'm talking a serious slice of buttery creamy heaven...unbelievable. I cannot for the life of me think of why I didn't like it as a kid. Anyway, I had 1/4 cup, enjoyed it and counted the points for it. I'm glad I didn't take my mom's offer of taking the rest home. It would have been a HUGE temptation to have to try to deal with. No thanks.
Speaking of temptations...my dark chocolate bar is still in my desk drawer untouched. It's so weird to me how I can devour anything that remotely looks, smells or tastes like a pastry...but not even be remotely interested in a perfectly decadent dark chocolate bar. Very weird....
My challenge today was rice pudding....not just any rice pudding. I'm talking old Spanish recipe from my great grandmother Jualita type of rice pudding. It's made with a ton of butter, cream and sugar. My mom made some and invited me over. I don't remember ever eating this decadent desert during my childhood so I wasn't expecting much. I pretty much thought it was because it must be horrible and I will remember that as soon as I take a small taste of it. O M G....it was beyond yummy...I'm talking a serious slice of buttery creamy heaven...unbelievable. I cannot for the life of me think of why I didn't like it as a kid. Anyway, I had 1/4 cup, enjoyed it and counted the points for it. I'm glad I didn't take my mom's offer of taking the rest home. It would have been a HUGE temptation to have to try to deal with. No thanks.
Speaking of temptations...my dark chocolate bar is still in my desk drawer untouched. It's so weird to me how I can devour anything that remotely looks, smells or tastes like a pastry...but not even be remotely interested in a perfectly decadent dark chocolate bar. Very weird....
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Tuesday, Feb. 1, 2010
First day of February!! I had a great, healthy day. Work still sucks, but what are you gonna do, ya know? I try to focus on my weight loss journey and that helps me feel better. We hit the gym tonight...did 20 minutes of cardio, and worked chest, shoulders and triceps tonight. It felt good to get a good workout in!
My nutrition was stellar today! I'm back to tracking my points and I can already tell the difference. At this point, I don't really care if I have to do that for the rest of my life. Some people can just gage it right instinctively, but I guess I'm not built that way. Either that or I'm just not ready to be that independent yet. I'm just thankful I'm feeling that great "healthy" feeling again. I have discovered Crimini Mushrooms....oh...my...gosh! They are so buttery tasting and have such a great flavor when sauted in a bit of olive oil and garlic salt. LOVE them!
After the gym we watched a movie called "Brothers"...pretty good movie. I tried a recipe I got from TrulyJess's YouTube page called "pumpkin yogurt". not bad, not bad at all. We added protein powder though, since we needed a protein boost after our workout. I'm going to be experimenting with the rest of the pumpkin all this week...I'll be adding it to my oatmeal, baking it, blending it with cottage cheese, etc. I need to use it up and I LOVE pumpkin flavored anything! :)
I'm soooo tired...time to turn in and give my hard worked muscles some much needed recoup time.
Stay Strong...and remember, no excuses! ;)
My nutrition was stellar today! I'm back to tracking my points and I can already tell the difference. At this point, I don't really care if I have to do that for the rest of my life. Some people can just gage it right instinctively, but I guess I'm not built that way. Either that or I'm just not ready to be that independent yet. I'm just thankful I'm feeling that great "healthy" feeling again. I have discovered Crimini Mushrooms....oh...my...gosh! They are so buttery tasting and have such a great flavor when sauted in a bit of olive oil and garlic salt. LOVE them!
After the gym we watched a movie called "Brothers"...pretty good movie. I tried a recipe I got from TrulyJess's YouTube page called "pumpkin yogurt". not bad, not bad at all. We added protein powder though, since we needed a protein boost after our workout. I'm going to be experimenting with the rest of the pumpkin all this week...I'll be adding it to my oatmeal, baking it, blending it with cottage cheese, etc. I need to use it up and I LOVE pumpkin flavored anything! :)
I'm soooo tired...time to turn in and give my hard worked muscles some much needed recoup time.
Stay Strong...and remember, no excuses! ;)
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